Did I mention EVERYTHING?!

Hello, my name is Almost A Bride. 

I look mentally unstable.

Welcome to my world!!

It is a fun world, full of flowers and dresses, dates and stresses. And an occasional unflattering picture to show that I am perfectly human!

For the next month I am going to invite you into my world of wedding planning and craziness. Be prepared, it is a very honest and sometimes terrifying world. It is what every almost bride wants to say but never feels free to share. My world is a little bit of a mess right now so bear with me. You'll have to step around random thoughts and quirky bunny trails. There are a bunch of imperfect thoughts and really unbecoming pictures. I am not into being the perfect bride. So without further ado, fasten your seat belts and get ready for this adventure!

Day One:

I have a month. A month. I almost just threw up 10 minutes ago thinking about the fact that in a month....I will be a Mrs. A MRS PEOPLE!!! Do you understand the significance of this fact? No longer a Hennigan. No longer Miss Chiarra. But most significantly... No longer a virgin.

Admit it, you were thinking it. I just had the courage to say it. I am going to give my virginity to my husband. Yippie!!! >>!!insert happy dance!!<<

Isn't that pretty much what goes through everyone's minds at a wedding anyways? "Oh hey betcha they are gonna do it tonight...hehehe..." So let me just clear the air, kill the elephant in the room, whatever you want to say... Now it is out there! And yes, I am super excited! Thanks for asking! ;)

Okay sorry for the bunny trail, back to what I was trying to say...

I am giving up everything. Everything. I am giving up my name, my life, my home, everything... I think I have said everything enough by now but just to be sure you know how I feel...I AM GIVING UP EVERYTHING!!!

That is slightly frightening at times...

Speaking that I still can't figure out how to sign my new name...

Have I mentioned how much I HATE cursive K's? I can never get them to look pretty enough....

And it is soooooooo long....

I pretty much scribble Hennigan as it is... But Hennigan is easy to scribble....

This is why, God, that I told you I wanted someone with a shorter last name! 

Oh have I also mentioned that I am completely screwed from now on in the name pronunciation department? I thought I had issues before...Oh geez, get ready for scariness....

I am moving down the street...okay maybe to the next town, oh well I might have exaggerated there I am moving states...Actually oceans... Yup, moving across the ocean. When? Oh just 2 days after the wedding. No biggie right? Ha! As if getting married isn't change enough, I am moving to an island.

I always said I couldn't live on an island...there is no where to go if something scary happens. You all pretty much are screwed and get to die by drowning. Have sweet dreams!

I probably sound by now as if I am freaking out...Actually I am not. I have no idea why or how I am feeling calm...

The funny thing about all this is, I have peace. A strange, beautiful, unexplained peace. I have joy and happiness... I WANT to give up everything. I want to start a new and beautiful life. I want to wake up in a new state, completely scared out of my freaking mind. I want to stress and plan and run around like a psycho chicken with one leg and no head. I want to sign that marriage license and enter into a crazy adventure... I am so excited to give up everything that I have now in return for a much more beautiful life than I could have ever planned for myself...

My life is about to be turned upside down, and then inside out, and then be sent into a volcano and blown across a mountain....and I am happy about it!

I cannot wait to marry Cody. I have no doubt that he is the man for me...

One time he told me, "I will marry you, Chiarra. That isn't a question." 

But that is a tale for tomorrow perhaps...

Goodnight beautiful world!

Love, Almost A Bride