The heart that screams no...

NO you are not worthy of love.
NO you are not deserving of happiness.
NO you should not let someone love you.
NO you can't ever heal properly.
NO you won't ever be fully okay.
NO your life will always be miserable.
NO
NO
NO
NO

My heart won't accept truth anymore. My heart vomits out what it can't bear to believe anymore.

The truth hurts too much to believe when people are always proving the lies more often.

But it is time to start believing the truth again.

The truth that I am worthy of love, the truth that people do care about me. The truth that I am a great person, that I am doing more with my life than I know. I need to believe that someone can love me for me and truly wants to never cause me pain. There is truth in the fact that I deserve happiness and it is not selfish to look for happiness for myself. I need to embrace the truth that it is okay to need people, it is okay to rely on others, that two are better than one and that when I fall down, a friend can pick me up. I need to believe the truth that I am beautiful and loved and wanted. I am desirable.

It make take a while for my heart to start believing these things, but I won't stop telling myself them. I won't stop until I believe them.

I won't stop until I can look myself directly in the eyes and say, "Chiarra, you are one heck of a great woman," and not have my heart pull back in fear and rejection of that statement.

I will believe the truth, because the truth is going to set me free.