Just smile...

Oh how much venom I can throw into a smile....

You don't know until you get one the daggers that I can use to pierce your soul with just one smile...

Oh and how wonderful it feels to throw one your way.

Because quite honestly I hate you. Still.

You stole a very precious thing from me.

So yeah, I still hate you.

But I hate you less than I did. Because the pain you caused me was so deep I let it fester and grow in my heart until I was a numb black expanse of nothing. Hatred towards you spilled death into my very soul.

But instead of glare at you, I can finally smile at you.

Because I have a man who has loved the very depths of my brokenness back to healing. I have a God who has restored me and made me new and alive again.

So please, please please please... Allow the joy of my heart to spill onto you, searing your skin with its warmth.

Take and relish in my smile and the fact that I am no longer under your spell. And please know that every second you see my happiness you will know how little I think about you. Allow it to fluster you, make you uncomfortable, make you realize you destroyed what could have been the best thing to happen to you. Take that to bed with you every night. Allow it to force you to face the horror of your own soul.

Until you find the freedom I found, let my smile haunt you the rest of your life.

And remember the last thing you said to me? Those two wonderful words that you threw so hatefully at me? Well right back at you.

Cause guess what? I hate you still, but I can now smile cause my heart is free from your chains.

And someday, my scar tissue will be healed and you won't even be a thought in my mind.

Please allow the hope I found to spill to you. You need Him like I did.