Painting uncomfortable things...

Okay so when I agreed to move here and change my whole life around, I did not know that I was also agreeing to do without a craft store.

Seriously, how am I supposed to live without a craft store? No Hobby Lobby, no Joann's, no Michael's... Only this super tiny store called Benjamin something and a craft store on base somewhere that I have yet to go to because shopping around a bunch of military wives..... Eh not exactly my cup of tea.

Now don't get me wrong, they can be really sweet and nice and totally awesome. Once you get to know them. But mostly I feel judged because I look so young to them. I am almost 21 and I still look 12. It is a problem I know.

But how in the world do you expect me to live without my craft store?

My withdraws are so bad I just dreamt about being in Hobby Lobby.

I AM DREAMING OF CRAFT STORES!!! This is a serious problem.

And coming home. And my husband.

Hmm... All things that I miss desperately.

Today when my husband left for work he asked me to paint him something... Something that had to do with the sea... Well not exactly the kind of thing that I paint on a regular basis but he wants it so I will do my best.

And isn't that what God wants? Just our best. He knows that we may not make the most beautiful painting, he knows that we are not equipped to paint elaborate pictures just quite yet. God knows that asking us to paint things outside of our comfortable zone might push us past limits that we thought we had. But no matter the outcome, God will think that our paintings are beautiful. No matter how screwed up I make this painting, Cody will love it.

God asked this ridiculous and overwhelming task from me. Move away to a place that is nothing like what I am used to. To live with very few friends and a husband who is gone 75% of the time that we have together.

I don't know why God thought that I could handle painting that picture. But I guess I will do my best to paint with what I have been given and leave the rest up to him.

Now to find a craft store that I can order from online!!